Thinking of Yesteryear

For the past 24 or so hours I’ve been reminiscing of my 17 year old self which was 60lbs lighter, clearer skin, and much longer hair. I don’t hate myself or my looks right now but I’m not exactly pleased with them either. I’ve been working out and I understand that the weight just won’t disappear but I keep wishing that I would wake up a few pounds lighter each day. I just wanna look and feel like that girl I used to be. My joints hurt, probably from the stress of the weight. I’m always tired, probably because of the amount of weight. No matter how much I dress up, put on makeup or do my nails I still feel sub par. “If you don’t like what you look like then change it.” Yea, I’ve heard that before. But the patience for change is few and far in between. So in the interim I sit and reminisce… of what I used to be…of what I’m waiting and working to become…

My Fancy Feet

So #LaiWrench would not let me lie to my blog followers so here goes! Since my last post was about something about me that I'm not particularly fond of the next post needs to be about something I love. I hope this doesn't sound like a fetish but I love my feet! :) (FYI: Please enjoy this picture of #LaiWrench's feet while you read!)

I have nice feet - pretty feet as a matter of fact. They are are nicely shaped and when I have a fresh pedicure, they're soft and smooth. They don't have a lot of blemishes and discoloring and my nails are nicely shaped as well. During the summer I often take the time to do my own pedicures. I soak my feet, then I buffer my heels, then I shape my nails and cut the claws (lol) and paint them a cute color. I love to show them off in cute sandals and peep toe shoes. I guess I'm done then cause #LaiWrench is policing my blogging experience. Thanks for reading. See ya'll next time :)

J'liv.

Well, hello there...

I can blog!!!!! Technically I should NOT be blogging right now but I don't have enough energy to stay awake in recitation. So we'll scratch this and consider it a fail for the week in my Logic class o_0 Anywho, last semester was pretty crazy. I know my last post was September and it's now January. (such slobbish behavior, I know) But I'm back!! Not that I'm making any promises. I work two jobs, each for 12 hrs during the week, I have a 15 cr. class load, sing in the gospel choir and help out with a bible study. Yeeaa, I'm doing a lot. But it keeps me on my toes. So needless to say I am busy!

Now onto the reason why I stopped blogging in the first place. I had NOT been to the gym. I actually hadn't gone at ALL last semester! (again with the slobbish behavior!) But I came back this semester with goal of going everyday! That worked for the first five days! Yay me, lol! But once classes were underway the gym no longer fit into my schedule. By the time I had finished my day, gotten homework done, changed my clothes and headed back out, the gym would be closed.

But that's not a deterrent for me. I am determined to keep moving in the right direction. So, I am doing the P90x from home. And can I say one thing? #iHurt...bad. The P90x is mostly for you to build muscles so you can be ripped but I'm building muscles so I can burn fat. Most of the fat on me now is from the muscle I used to have so this is good for me. I do need to get more aerobic exercise in but this'll do in the interim. And as for my weight...*drumroll* 225lbs #pow O_O* I gained almost 20 lbs last semester, doing what I don't know! But it's cool. I'm not freaking out; just pressing forward. And as for eating I eat at least TWO meals a day. I was at three but the antibiotic I'm taking makes me nauseous so I eat less and my food choices are more responsible as well. Overall, I'm happy and moving in the right direction and as for my esteem. Well, I'm feeling me...for now...and I think this is going to last for a nice little while :)

PS: I'm going to pick up where I left off with my POA so I'll blog tomorrow!!

J'liv